We've got to keep going...

Today was a day for flashbacks.

Standing in this living room, I had my iTunes blaring on shuffle. And it is weird how life works, because as soon as her name popped into my head the song came on...

"I've heard it said that people come into our lifes for a reason..."

Steve held me as I stared out the window and allowed myself, just for one brief moment, to miss her.

Then, I was walking to class. And the sky was blue and the air was cool and out of nowhere a gust of wind blew my hair and it smelled so fresh, like spring. And I thought...

"I'm in my car, driving to nowhere, getting somewhere and sitting next to me and in the backseat are two of the greatest friends I'll ever have... and nothing will ever change that."

But it changed, right? Life always changes. And that's okay, you know... we all have to move on.

But surfing on Facebook today I came across an old picture of all of us. Me, you, Chris, Michael, Shari. And my heart skipped. And I smiled.

Because, yes, there was proof finally that there was a time when we didn't fight. There was a time when we existed in eachother's life. There was a time when the smiles... they weren't fake.

We weren't faking it there.

I miss home. I miss the PEOPLE at home. I miss Shari's crazy stories. I miss Michael's warm hugs. I miss Cyela's sarcasm and most of all I miss your contagious laugh. The one that I would join in with and nobody would know what the hell was going on. I miss being those friends who could stay up talking about nothing and know that it still meant something.

Can you remember any of this? I had forgotten it... I don't know why I remember now...

Gabby